“HEEELP!! It was almost night already. xxx Why!? Clothes, a few paperback books, my alarm clock. Hours upon hours; I laid in bed almost motionless. This was all or nothing. Why couldn’t I sleep through the pain, like before? I wanted her then. My mouth was so dry. Now we always fought; a constant tug of war. Laugh with her. I was cold. Wait. My body seemed to be waking up a little. Why couldn’t I sleep through the pain, like before? I listened to the phone ring, over and over, no one would come. Weak. Hours passed. Some papers and my old pocket knife fell too. I didn’t care anymore who did it. I was alone. I had to use the bathroom. I was pathetic. Clothes, a few paperback books, my alarm clock.




















