I couldn’t talk to my mom about it, cause she would be angry/disappointed with me. xxx It didn’t feel extremely pleasurable as I hear it’s supposed to feel like. My first time wasn’t at all what I expected/ or wanted it to be like. My first time sucked: I was nervous, I hurt, I was scared, and I didn’t even get an orgasm. But I knew that wasnt going to be the last time I had sex. And I believed him. So it’s like the samething right? I was uncomfortable and hurting, wishing it would be over soon. I always loved laying with him, cuddling, and laying on him ( when he’s on the couch). He kept dropping hints like saying: he had a boner, or saying if I loved him that I would have sex
